I could write a whole book on jealousy…but I wont. Anything can get a person jealous nowadays...literally. Either a person looks at your partner in the wrong way, or you see someone being a little too friendly with your girlfriend, etc. And sadly the feeling just gets worse. The “big ugly green monster” as we call it-just keeps growing bigger and bigger inside of you till something that resembles the Hulk comes out of you when you least (want) or expect it to...usually hurting someone in the process.
I’ve never liked feeling jealous. It doesn’t feel good. Its not like revenge where you feel that tiny sense of satisfaction that makes you wanna suddenly sport a big black cape and shout “MUAHA HA HA HA!!!” to the whole world. Nope. Jealousy isn’t like hunger. It isn’t like love. It doesn’t fill in the holes in you life. Its just…IT. And it just makes you feel worse and worse...eating inside of you like a thousand starving worms. I mostly hate that big discomforting feeling you get inside your gut. It makes me want to just vomit :(
Of course there’s the fine line between “good jealousy” and “bad jealousy,” (which are both total oxymorons if you ask me). Ahhh the good in jealousy. You cant go wrong there if your partner is purposely trying to make you jealous in any possibly way their cruel little minds can manage. Is it wrong though? To literally make someone FEEL jealous? Because that’s what it is...a feeling. A big ugly feeling that wont let you sleep,. Wont let you eat. Wont let you love. Did you catch that last one? “Wont let you love.” Are you surprised? Love is not jealous! Remember? Hmmmmmmmmmmm!
And so we move on to the bad jealousy…the one that people go to jail for, or get dumped for, or cause distrust and misery and “unlove.” (Yep, that’s rite-I made up a new word haha). Does it really make you feel better to prove all your assumptions right? To know that that one girl he always comments on Myspace really is flirting with him through texting and email? (And you only know this because you found out his password and went through his stuff!)
Stop it!
Stop being nosy and look at the big log in your own eye! Stop reading his comments and checking his voicemail for new messages and wondering who his new status is about! If he loves you-he’ll say it. He’ll show it. He’ll mean it.
And there’s nothing like knowing you did wrong and feeling like crap for accusing you innocent one over absolutely nothing.
it’s a bummer when you lose someone over jealousy. It sucks to remember those old feelings that still make you want to throw up. Or have someone new and wonder who they’re texting…!
it’s a cruel cruel world if you ask me. Luckily there’s still a few good people left on earth. A few good guys. A couple great gals.
Go get em.
Have a great life.
Live the love you’ve always dreamed of.
Act out your own chick flick. Your own love movie. Your own soap opera.
Be romantic and spontaneous just cuz you feel like it.
And don’t ever forget to make that one special person know how much they’re appreciated just for loving ya and keeping you sane.
Your heart is a precious treasure that only you have-
don’t give it away just cuz sparks fly when you kissed or cuz you felt tingles down your spine when they held your hand for the first time. Wait it out. Test time.
Let your mind tell you how your heart is doing.
Because remember: The heart is the most deceitful among all things.
Live happy.
And don’t let that ugly green monster come out to play anymore (:
